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Friday, August 12th, 2005
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4:20 pm - Very Good Day
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So today, I cleaned all the radios, had a great patrol, almost have the progression for a song completely done, and yes I finally played around on MySpace. It's still under serious construction but, its viewable. go ahead and check it out. I have to Finish recording this Song so that I can send it to Andy, Kyle, and Jackie for them to initiate the mad crazy Colab transformation into a decent song. Guys, it's not hard at all, and you'll probably hate it but humor me, it's up to you to make it great.
Love, Miss, and trying to make you all Proud,
Drew
My MySpace http://www.myspace.com/6904002
current mood:  accomplished
current music: Foundation of "Arduous Devotions and Broken Porcelain Dolls"
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(Kissed Good-Bye)
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| Wednesday, August 10th, 2005
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7:51 am - Nothing, Then Suddenly BOOM, there it was...
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So, no more Tower Guard....because my tower got blown up. lol. However I was playing guitar and this new riff came into my mind and now I'm reconstructing all my riffs and actually getting very very close to finishing an entire guitar part for a song. I'm so almost there. No word on leave yet, but I'm so excited about almost finishing a whole song. I really hope when its all done, that you all like what we make.
Love, Miss, and trying to make you all Proud,
Drew
current mood:  excited
current music: "Forgottten Holiday" ~ Autumn Falling
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(4 Were | Kissed Good-Bye)
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| Sunday, August 7th, 2005
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11:20 am - Decisions Made...
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So my last week or two here have been far from the best days in Iraq. I've heard the words "I'm sorry Chuck..." way too many times. I was put on Tower Guard for the week with my best bud Taylor, as a last ditch effort to prevent me from snapping on someone. Being stuck in a tower for hours on end has given me a lot of time to think. I still have two or three more days of it, and I've made some decisions. First of all, I recently discovered that my buddy has started a new band that I never knew of before, and they instantly became my new favorite band in about 5 minutes. With such absolute amazment, I've been inspired to not rest until I finish a song or maybe two if I get into the zone. Thank you Gretchen. Secondly, I've almost completely decided to seriously cut down if not completely quit smoking in an attempt to restore my voice. I remember when I got back from Basic and hadn't smoked for four and a half months, my voice was dramatically better. Believe it or not, I could sing farely decently when I arrived at Ft. Stewart and I want to get that back because well, I love to sing whether others around me enjoy it or not. Finally, I don't think I'll stay in Iraq for an extra year after all. Pardon my French, but Fuck this country and the whole Arab Nation/Peoples as a whole. I know that everything I do over here is helping and that their lives are all getting better just from my being in the same part of the world, but it's someone else's turn when this year is out, and I want so badly just to be a kid agian. I'm sorry if I've let anyone down with that last statement, but I've realized that I'll never become that Hero some would believe me to be. Forgive me, Forgive me please.
Kyle, Andy, and Jackie. Get ready to put some work into some songs. They'll be rough, but I've never wanted anything to happen more than I want "Fireman's Carry" to happen now. Love you guys.
Love, Miss, and Trying to Make you all Proud,
Drew
current mood:  determined
current music: "Something to Reflect On" ~ Autumn Falling
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(4 Were | Kissed Good-Bye)
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| Wednesday, August 3rd, 2005
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8:46 pm - If anyone reads my journal anymore, Please answer.
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I have an opportunity, and it would be very good in the long run. I'm afriad that I would lose every friend that I've come to love back in El Paso though, so I'm asking everyone of your opinions on the matter.
What do you think, about me staying in Iraq for another year?
current mood:  confused
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(6 Were | Kissed Good-Bye)
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| Tuesday, August 2nd, 2005
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5:45 pm - Some Of My Problems
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(One of the reasons) I'm not getting promoted, I got jew'd.
(Another one of the reasons)
I loved a girl
She liked me back
She pushed me away
She found someone else
We Talked
Then we didn't Talk for a long time
My heart was broken
I had a few signifigant others
I compared them all to her
Thus, My relationships never lasted
I Never told anyone
We Talk now
When She's Sad
I want to help
When she's sick
I want to take care of her
(And make her chicken soup)
I still love a girl
and she has no idea
how it's ruined my heart
current mood:  rejected
current music: Years ~ Mike Ruekberg
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12:44 am - Nieh!!!
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I hate this snjaohufsao Nieh! I want to vent, but I cant! and it's getting bad. I'm in a real pissy mood today. No Kindness, I'm all tapped out! Maybe I can sleep it off.
Today's question to God...
"Fucking why!"
current mood: pissed off
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(3 Were | Kissed Good-Bye)
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| Sunday, July 31st, 2005
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12:37 pm - I Did It
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Today I had to take ANOTHER PT Test to confirm that I could score over a 260, I was really tired because I had just got done with a 5 hour patrol, but I went out and scored a 265! I'm really happy about that. It means that in the next few days here I'll be promoted to Specialitst. I'll be the same rank as my brother. My Platoon Seargent says that if I can get 6 more points, just enough to score over a 270 that he will give me my Corporal stripes. It'll take 3 months before I'm eligable Time in Service for them, but it'll be no later than three months provided I get the score. Thank you for all the prayers and support. I found out about my leave sometime this month so cross your fingers for that. Thank you all agian.
Love, Miss, And trying to make you Proud,
Drew
current mood:  blank
current music: Homeward Bound ~ Simon and Garfunkel
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(Kissed Good-Bye)
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| Wednesday, July 27th, 2005
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1:31 pm - Y'all Will Never Believe This!
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Ok, so when I first got to Iraq, me and my great buddy Taylor were talking one day and started to joke about how funny it would be if himself and I ever opened a resturaunt. It would be called "Chuck Taylor's Bar and Grill" and everything would be awesome. Well, over the duration of the deployment we've talked more and more on the subject, and the focus of the entire project eventually shifted from joking around, to a "Maybe in a few years down the road, we'll give it a try" Then it happened.
Tayboy has a girlfriend back in Georgia named Jessica, he gave her a nickname and so we all know her as "Hooker Face". Well Ole' Hooker Face is origianlly from Virginia where her father resides currently. This man deals in the importing and exporting of Paper and Paper goods...aka HE'S FILTHY EFFING RICH! He owns his own private estate in Virginia complete with Mansion, owns a seperate mansion a little distance from his own that he pays for and his wife lives there, and he also pays for his Daughters out of state tuition, car and very nice expensive appartments near the campus up in Statesboro, Georgia at Georgia Southern University (Go Eagle!) Not to mention her eexpensive/ostentacious life style and spending habits.
Well, Jessica told Daddy about our Idea and a few days ago while talking to Tay, informed him that Daddy would like to financially support the planning, constuction, and maintaining of "Chuck Taylor's Bar and Grill" 100%!!! His timeline, is far different than our own however, because instead of waiting a few years down the road, Daddy would like to get the whole operation started as soon as Tayboy and Myself ETS or retire from the Army in 2008.
Ladies and gentleman, my ship has come in. I can't believe that when my Army years expire, I will be opening a resturaunt of my own. Theres a lot of details still to be covered but there's time to do so. If things go my way though, there will be quite a few job openings and I know there's quite a few friends that I would love to come work for me. I', so excited. *Wets Pants*
Still no word as to when or how long I will be dissappearing from you all, but expect it very very very soon.
Love, Miss, and trying to make you all proud,
Drew
(Co-Owner of Chuck Taylor's Bar and Grill) *Wink*
current mood:  good
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(3 Were | Kissed Good-Bye)
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| Monday, July 25th, 2005
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10:39 am - Attention
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All I can say, is that I will be out of contact for a while. I can't tell you why, or how long it will be. I'm very sorry, blame my Lieutenent. I hope this doesn't last long, but it could. Good-bye for a bit, talk to you all when I can agian.
Love, Miss, and always trying to make you proud,
Drew
current mood: pissed off
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(1 Were | Kissed Good-Bye)
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| Wednesday, July 20th, 2005
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4:21 am
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Okay, so here we go
1.) Still alive
2.) Got my computer, some great programs
3.) *Acquired* a guitar
4.) Sending music to the guys for Collab madness
5.) "Fireman's Carry" is about to finally be born
6.) I'm Not on the list for Leave next month
7.) I took another PT test and scored a 241, I'm going up
Still have until the end of the month to get a 260...pray
8.) Found out that my buddy Taylor has secretly been trying
to hook me up with every single girl in his g/f's sorority
9.) My fear of girls has reached an all time high
10.) I miss you all
So there's this movie that I bought and didnt watch for a few months. It just sat in my wall locker forever until one day I decided to finally give it a try. I only bought it because it was a Fox Searchlight film, and up until that moment I had never been let down by the studio...I was absolutely taken with this movie. It has instantly become one of my all time favorites. So, if you ever get the chance to watch the movie "Dummy" starring Adrian Brodi, Milla Jovovich, and Illeana Douglas, take the chance. I was so shocked with Milla Jovovich's performance, speachless so to say. Anyone who can take a grungy garage punk band and turn it into full blown Kleznor group, let alone do it well, is my hero(in). Well, I'm doing well and I love and miss you all.
Love, Miss, and trying to make you all proud,
Drew
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(2 Were | Kissed Good-Bye)
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| Thursday, July 14th, 2005
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12:19 am - One Month Ago...
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| Tuesday, July 5th, 2005
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9:06 am - America, I Miss You
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Well, First of all let me start off by wishing you all a Happy Independence Day. It has been both my Honor and pleasure to serve you all.
Secondly, I have a PT test on the 7th of this month. If I can manage a score of 255, then I will be ensured my promotion to Corporal. Stateside, a 255 would be a score I could get it my sleep, but here it's something that is tough to get, because the climate and lack of time to condition myself. I ask everyone to please pray for me if it's possible. It would really help out my Platoon and Company to have another Noncomissioned Officer right now, seeing as how we've lost a few. I really want my stripes everyone and I'm honored that they would consider me for the position. So, please pray for me to meet the standards set for this to happen. Please, thank you.
Love, Miss, and trying to make you all Proud,
Drew
P.S. ~ Corporal Chuck...haha, that sounds kinda funny.
current mood:  Hopeful
current music: Jimmy Eat World
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(6 Were | Kissed Good-Bye)
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| Sunday, June 26th, 2005
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5:34 am - Hey
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Hey Everyone,
I'm still alive
Leave looks like it's set for October agian
My Unit was in the news
Suprised to be living after the event that was in the news
My computer finally gets here next week so I can make music agian
ROCK AND ROLL
I miss you all:(
current mood: blank
current music: Futures - Jimmy Eat World
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(3 Were | Kissed Good-Bye)
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| Sunday, June 12th, 2005
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2:09 pm
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| Your IQ Is 175 | 
Your Logical Intelligence is Genius
Your Verbal Intelligence is Genius
Your Mathematical Intelligence is Genius
Your General Knowledge is Genius |
Why I Joined the Army...I'll never know.
Even More of a Puzzle, My newest plan for the future that kicks ass.
I'm On R&R right now, doing fine and have the next three days to rest here int he Green zone. I'll be getting in contact with all of you soon enough. Love and miss you all. Trying to make you proud.
Love Always,
Drew
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(10 Were | Kissed Good-Bye)
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| Tuesday, May 31st, 2005
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10:50 am
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| Thursday, May 19th, 2005
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2:42 pm
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| Wednesday, April 27th, 2005
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12:31 pm
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I dont know why, but my leave was cancelled for some reason. This means that I will not be coming home on the 11th of next month. Ill end up coming later in the year. I don't know when, but I'll let you all know as soon as I do. Sorry.
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(8 Were | Kissed Good-Bye)
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| Thursday, April 21st, 2005
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8:30 pm - Very Important
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Well, Things here are getting even more intense. Everyday theres something now. I can't wait to tell you all about it when I come home. Speaking of when I come home, the army hates me. I origanlly was set to come home on Mid-Tour leave in October, but now due to reasons out of my control, I will be coming home sooner than that...a lot sooner. We're talking about like, I'm coming home in three weeks sooner.
So this is my big announcement. Though I have fought the Army on countless occasions on it, I lost like always and now I will be leaving for home on May 11th. 15 days of nothing but Martinis, music, and relaxation. I hope to see everyone then, I will probably actually get to El Paso on the 14th or 15th if everything goes smooth, but this is the Army so cross your fingers. Hope to see you all soon, and tell you all my stories.
See You In Three Weeks
Love Always,
Drew
current mood: Undecided
current music: King of Queens
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(25 Were | Kissed Good-Bye)
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| Tuesday, February 8th, 2005
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9:44 pm - Hello From Kuwait
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I know I said that was the final post but I just couldn't resist and I dont think any of you are going to complain.
So I'm here in Kuwait right now and Ill be here for about another week. When we flew over here I got to stop in Greenland somewhere, Ireland, and Germany. That's right, ole' Drew's gone international. So far we've done nothing but training, guearding, and getting ready to head north over the Berm. I'm doing fine and I miss everyone sooooo much. Kuwait is 100% desert and I never understood it through my brother's pictures so I cant expect anyone else to understand...but there is nothing here. Nothing but dirt for miles all around. To make it worse, I can't use any of my electronics! Because all the outlets are fucking european outlets!!! I have an adaptor...but I need to get a converter too! I hate this country, good thing I have some awesome guys to be around.
There are Camels though! I seen 'em the other day! They travel in herds and they come in all different colors like horses and they're huge!!!
I'm good though, there might be a website made for my squad which will have a bunch of pictures and stuff of me and my guys and how we're doing or what we're doing. I'll let you all know. Regardless though. I've taken some great pictures and I'll be sending them home as soon as I get them all saved onto disks for everyone and also I get my address (Which should be tonite)
And now I say good-bye and walk 5 miles back to my little Hadji built tent in the middle of the beach with no water. Then Ill write in my journal, then write another letter to Leah (She deserves a few...gawhd I love her) I'll talk to you all soon. I miss and love you all. I'm fine, and there's no need to worry. Always trying to make you proud.
current mood:  blah
current music: Where you want to be ~ Taking Back Sunday
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| Saturday, January 22nd, 2005
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1:12 pm - "The Final Post"
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And so here it is, my final post.
Almost a year ago I did the worst thing I could've ever done to my friends...I left them. This is about the only regret I have of leaving El Paso, but this one reason alone would keep me from joining the army if I were to change the past. Over the last year I've made such great new friendships, strengthened old ones, and even fell in love! Needles to say this was one of the more exciting years of my life. One I'll not easily forget.
I'm coming up on what will without a doubt be the greatest challenge I've ever faced to date, and might possibly be the greatest I ever do. Though some of us don't like to think about it, it might be the last thing I ever do in this life as well.
People ask me everyday why I did it, why I joined the Army. For the longest time I could only answer with an "I don't honestly know". Up until last weekend I wasn't sure what I was doing with my life or why I was doing what I was doing or even if I was ready to go to Iraq yet. Then, by the sheer grace of god I was given a gift, a last trip to El Paso for the weekend to see everyone. It was wonderful and much needed. Over the few days back home I strengthend old freindships, made new ones, and even fell in love. It was so hard for me to leave agian, and for the first time...I almost didn't. I was in the airport going through security and the regular thoughts were going through my head. "I really hope I don't miss my flight, security needs to hurry up" and then I started to think about what would happen if I didn't make my flight...and then I thought about how I could not go back, how I could stay. I went slowly through security, I walked slowly through the terminal, and arrived at my gate in time to see the door being closed. I stood looking at my ticket and so many thoughts rushing through my head. One in particular that I kept hearing was "Please don't go."
Leah held me the night before and had said this to me. Leah and I have something and I don't know if either of us can really explain it but I love her and to hear her say those words almost made me cry. I love her so much. It's hard, I find myself thinking about her all the time wondering where she is or what she's doing, if maybe she's thinking of me too. I think I could easily wake up to her face every morning for the rest of my life. I miss her more and more every day. I've never felt this way before.
I heard "Final bording call" and for some reason I decided to hand my ticket in and walk down the tunnel. I was feeling horrible about myself and I watched out the window until El Paso was out of sight. I fell asleep to drown out all the thoughts in my head and the pain in my heart. I finally made it to Nashville where I had a three hour layover. I spent all my money in the first hour on phone cards to call Leah and once I had no more, I went to my gate and sat down.
There as a small boy running around with a toy soldier or G.I. Joe and his seat was apparently next to mine but he had way to much energy to keep him in it. I was about to just lay down and suppress my heartache and self-downing thoughts when he ran over and sat next to me. I noticed that he kept looking at me and eventually he pulled on my jacket. I looked down at him and said "What can I do for you boss?" He looked up and me and asked "Are you a real soldier?" My heart sank into my chest and I said "I sure am buddy" Then quite possibly one of the greatest moments of my life happened. The little boy hopped up and stood right in front of me and with a toy soldier in one hand he saluted me and said "Thank you Mister" I looked at him in awe. Got down on my knees and hugged him.
That's why I joined the Army, that's why I left home. I honestly believe that this is what I'm ment for doing.
In a few days, I'll leave to face demons that I hope none of you ever have to see. There's the possibilty that I might never come back agian. Hoenstly, I've never been more scared in my life, but it's not dying that I'm scared of. I'm not afraid to die. The only thing that I'm afraid of is those that I leave behind. I'm only afraid to never see any of you agian. I love you all and you are what I am, without you I am nothing.
My first feelings towards going to Iraq were very depressing ones, and Kyle knows them. However, since this last weekend my whole view of the situation has changed. My first idea was that, I'm not coming back.
Now, I see at as.....I have to come back.
I will be back El Paso, I will come home to you. I will come home to Corey, John, Kyle, Andrew and the rest of the crew. I will move back one day, But I feel that I have to do this deep in my heart I know it. God has blessed me with such wonderful people in my life. Corey, John, Andy, Kyle, Matt, Amanda, Megan, X-Tina, Sarah, Brittani (With an "A"), Jess, Strader, Malcom, Rosie, Karen, Starr, Stephanie, Louie, Chris, Michelly, Michele, and so many more! You all are a gift from god, one that I thank him for every night before I fall asleep. You all have given me so much, and for that I owe you so much. If it means that I have to go half-way around the world to protect you...I'd do it agian after this. I honestly believe that it would be better for me to be shot at over there, then for them to shoot at you over here. I never want any harm to come to any of you, and should any come to you then I have failed you and deserve to die.
You all will never understand how much I truely honestly Love you, and how much my life depends on the happieness and fullness of yours. Be safe everyone, and know that you will always be in my heart and prayers. One day, we will all be together agian, and things will be just like old times. Hell, I'll even get fat and grow my hair out for you all agian. I ask only one thing of you, and that is to never forget me and never let me become just a name.
I will always be there for you, whether physically there or not I will always be there. Make sure that you all check Andrew's LJ (0112358132134) from time to time to see how I'm doing. He'll be posting the pictures that I send back and letting you know what I'm up to. Make sure to please write me. Please.
There's so much I want to say, and I want to keep this going forever. Sadly I know it can't I must say good-bye eventually. There's so much, that I can't put into words. I only hope that I can make you all proud.
I'll miss you, and I love you...
Good-Bye Everyone
~Drew~
current mood:  unexplainable
current music: Eternal Sunshine Of A Spotless Mind
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